What do you do when you’ve taken on too much responsibility, and life seems out of control? You need to slow down, but the days are moving faster. What do you do?
Recently, through unexpected circumstances, my responsibilities increased dramatically.
Over committed, and sleep deprived, I’m finding my days spinning out of control. Maybe I shouldn’t have taken on so much responsibility, maybe I should have been more firm in saying no, or maybe I’m right where I need to be. Either way, I overwhelmed with the tasks at hand.
As each day is filled with new tasks that need to be completed right now, self-doubt slowly seeps into my thoughts. Feelings of inadequacy, and wondering if I’ve made the wrong decisions, are sweeping me off my feet. And last week I found myself in tears before the Lord, stating what I have been really holding back the entire time, “I’m ill-equipped for these responsibilities.”
I’ve come to grips that I’m feeling untrained, unprepared, undisciplined, immature, and ignorant of the wisdom that I need for the task at hand.
So, what did I do after I shed my tears, and I was still swimming in chaos?
After sharing my heart with trusted friends, and seeking prayer support, I did the only thing left to do…I went to scripture. I probably should have started there, but I ended there instead. As I searched God’s word this is where he brought me…
“All scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting, and training in righteousness, so that the servant of God may be thoroughly equipped for every good work.” 2 Timothy 3:16-17 NIV (emphasis mine)
The equipping that I feel that I’m lacking comes from God’s word, because it is useful. Useful to teach me what I need to know, useful to correct me on how to communicate to others, and useful to train me in righteousness.
This was encouraging, because it’s so simple. It’s encouraging, because it’s do-able. It’s encouraging, because it’s available. In some ways I’m already equipped, because I know God’s word. Yet, if I want to continue my equipping for the good work at hand, I need to be sure that God’s word is a priority in my personal life.
As Christians we all know that God’s word should be a priority in our lives, but this was the first time I connected God’s word with my being equipped for my responsibilities.
Are you struggling with feeling ill-equipped?
As a mom?
As a homeschooler?
As a wife?
In your ministry roles?
As a homemaker?
There are so many things in our lives that are important, yet many of us feel ill-equipped. If you’re struggling today, I encourage you that the Lord is doing his equipping in you through his word. So either stay in it, or get back to it.
What do you do when you feel ill-equipped for the important roles you’re filling?